these days

i don't ever know what day it is anymore. i spent my day under the delusion that it was thursday and that the office would be on tonight. i was disappointed.

i almost died tonight when a car tried to change lanes, right into us. i would have been the first to go, but jake saved me with his defensive driving skills. it was one of those moments when everything was silent. neither of us said anything, screamed, swore, nothing. it was scary. but i'm glad we lived. we went to the hot (luke-warm, rather) tub when we got home.

if i were to get a tattoo, i think i would get something like the above. or beatles lyrics...

i don't like my handwriting lately... does anyone know how one would go about improving her penmanship?

[new items of greatness:]

fionn regan

regina spektor's album, far

discovery (thank you, sweet cami)

nestle tollhouse cookie dough

ps. my tweezers have officially disappeared.

spotlight.

this is austin. he's my cousin.

he's sixteen and sweet and funny and i love him.

we get along really well.

we used to build forts in the garage.

i remember when he was born. he was a cute baby.

i miss him when i'm away at school.

he gave me this purple flannel on thanksgiving, when some relatives were giving me a hard time and made me cry at the dinner table (i'm a little emotional sometimes).

also, i got this purple coca cola glass for free with a larger quarter-pounder meal at mcdonald's. i'll be honest though, i upgraded the meal to get the glass... and for the record, i didn't eat the entire quarter-pounder, or all the fries.

my boyfriend is funny.

funny things that were said (mainly by jake) recently:

• "warped tour in idaho? what do they have there? mosh potato pits?"
• "winky!" (in reference to a one-eyed dog)
• "you know what i've always wanted to yell out in a crowded room? AMBER ALERT!!!"
• "all the turkey legs are gone?" "yeah, all two of them."
• "let's steal everything in this house. we don't know the people. we'll never see them again. we could steal the whole bathroom."
• "wow. these are ralph lauren glasses."
• "new MOON." (that was mine)
• "oh my asian. shut up." (to four people who were speaking, not whispering, in chinese throughout an entire movie)

catty whompus

i started my homework... really, i did. and i finished 13% of it. but then i wanted to go play in blog-land instead. so.. i did. and i don't care!

jake and i both gave talks today in sacrament meeting. cute, right? kind of weird to have a couple speak together in a singles ward though... luckily our adoring fans, jessy and kyle, came to support us and got this wonderful picture of us tootalllly not paying attention to anything once we were both done speaking. it's just how we are.. can't help it. as you can tell, we were very engaged in whatever we were talking about.

hokay. here we goes.

i have a feeling that wish-list items will soon be abundant on my blog...

natural canvas toms

[vegan] charcoal toms

toms are great because each time someone purchases a pair, toms gives a needy child a pair of shoes too. "one for one." fashion and charity at the same time? sounds good to me.

i was much dismayed upon discovering that there aren't any sandals for sale (or even to look at!?) on the teva website at the present time. sure, they are wildly reminiscent of the nineties, and they sure as hell don't look good with socks, but i'm dying for a pair of those strappy, velcro beasts when the warm weather returns. and i'll probably wear them with socks at some point anyways, just to be obnoxious.

ps. my birthday is two months from today. i can't wait to not be a 'teen' anymore.

inappropriateness. i like it.

meet panda bag.

i'll give you a minute to take it in.

now, i've been carrying this little beauty around byu campus all week. just waiting for some reaction. a chuckle, a comment, even a reprimand? but nothing from these people! it's almost as if my subtle rebellions aren't entertaining OR offending anymore. my life is in shambles.

it's like when i listen to somewhat "naughty" songs on my ipod while walking around campus, wondering what all these good kids would do if what i was listening to was playing on some intercom. a certain ben folds song comes to mind, number one song after number one song... hah. 

i guess i'll just have to find a new way to rebel while remaining within the limits of the byu honor code..

i've been noticing these nice little signs on telephone poles and street light posts on my walks to and from school. it gives me something to be excited about.

this semester i've been taking my physical science class at the salt lake center thursday nights. i go with my dear friend jessy, and we have lots of laughs. her husband kyle and my jakey are really good friends, so we always have funny things to talk about on the hour drives there and back, plus two and a half hours in class. i love that girl!

last week we were famished after class so we stopped at a mcdonald's in salt lake before making the trek back to provo. this was hitler's mcdonald's. there was a 30 minute time limit to eat your meal, they charged for extra sauce packets, they didn't allow refills, and they made you get a token to use the bathroom! so much for "fast" food. it was amusing though...

a hidden place

i'm blank again today. can't sleep, can't eat, can't describe. i have very little focus and even less motivation. i can usually write myself out of my uneasiness. but when i get in this certain mood, i'm at a complete loss. i could literally just sit and stare at the wall and think. i'm not myself, just kind of floating and pointless. i don't know what brings this on, and i don't know what to do with myself.