hysteria

around 4 am i woke up to rachel and christina whispering in our room. they both we standing by the door and i sat up and asked what was going on. rachel was completely convinced that she heard our front door open and close. so she ran into our room. we were all out of bed and standing by the door, listening intently. every little noise that the air conditioning or the fridge made increased our fear and heart rates. finally rachel got the courage to leave the room, as long as i went with her. so we checked all over and no one was there. we were relieved, but still scared out of our minds. so we ended up going back to bed; rachel slept on our floor. the last thing i heard before i fell back asleep was christina (the psychology major) saying, "guys, we just experienced hysteria." 

it's so weird how real and intense danger can seem when it's not there. even when you're mostly sure that you're safe, there's still that voice in the back of your head saying, what if you're not? it's scary to me because what if something did happen? how could i try to protect my roommates? my first thought was to prop the chair under the door handle, and be armed with a candle to throw at the attacker's head. but how would we escape? what if the other girls were in their room? even if we called someone to help, how would they get into the apartment if the door was locked?

maybe i'm paranoid, but i keep getting this sick feeling whenever i think about the mere possibility of someone trying to hurt us. i've decided that i need to sit down and make an emergency plan, just in case.