a day without

today was great! dad and uncle tim came up from arizona for the evening; tim owns a mortuary and he has a funeral tomorrow in nephi, so they decided to come up for a couple hours tonight to see me. we had dinner at costa vida, then they bought me groceries. hurrah! and now we have a toasterrr. i missed heroes tonight, and that was a bummer.  but micah's gonna download it tomorrow so i can see it.

i'm really frustrated that i can't sleep at a decent time. i get to this point every night and am absolutely dreading the morning to come. which i shouldn't be. but it's really hard to get into that cycle or pattern or whatever. i would take some tylenol p.m. but i would definitely be screwed in the morning.

while things are going relatively well, i'm kind of down about a couple of things. i'm trying my best to make the most of situations and handle myself well, but i'm just really struggling. part of me wants to never be home, just bopping around from apartment to apartment, seeing what everyone's doing and be really social and sassy. but the other part of me just wants to come home from school every day and crawl into bed until the next morning. it's ridiculous.

but, things really are going great. i'm still getting along with my roommates and meeting new friends and having random bits of fun. i love that i'm here, and i wouldn't change it because i know this is where i'm supposed to be right now. but, i really miss certain things about home. like sydnee, my mom, my cousins and grandparents, and everyone else. and i miss my own bedroom with all my own stuff, and qt. i definitely miss qt.